by James Wade says that he finds more relief than pride when he overcomes the challenges of bipolar disorder and plays from his best performance.
The 42-year-old was diagnosed in 2009 in 2009 when he had won the head of the sport in the past two years.
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Wade, an ambassador for the Great Britain bipolar, was able to make the challenges that the disease presented to stay among the Elite players, but admits that success is often more accompanied by a feeling of relief than with pride.
“Probably not a word that would really respond to it,” he told the PA news agency. “If I’m fine, I tick my own boxes in my head.
“I know that I can still do it and I can still do it. If I do what I did, I sometimes step back and probably feel relieved because I know that I can.
“But I also know how difficult I can do for myself. It is nothing I can do about someone, it’s about how I am and how I am.”
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There are many triggers for Wades illness, including a complete schedule, but he can recognize the signs and know how to manage them.
“I find it exhausting to talk to many people as they expected because sometimes I just want to sit there and be calm,” he said. “If you do this for six days, seven days, do something that is hard work for you, which other people take for granted, it only drains mentally.
Wade was at the top of the sport when Bipolar (Sean Dempsey/Pa) was diagnosed with him
“You catch yourself really negative about everything. It allows you to hate everything nearby.
“And it can happen so quickly. I had a couple, three or four days like this, but I went fishing, came back and felt really refreshed to be fair.
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“So you know, pretty much luck. It didn’t go to a big valley of fate and darkness that you can do for weeks and weeks and weeks.”
In his role as an ambassador for Bipolar Great Britain, Wade organizes a charity dinner on August 22nd to collect some urgently needed funds.
Darts Pals Michael Smith and Gerwyn Price will be present together with the songwriter Nicky Chinn and the TV presenter Leah Charles-King.
Wade, who is preparing for the World Matchplay in Blackpool, said: “Bipolar Great Britain is probably one of the worst financed charity.
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“Bipolar Great Britain are alone. They don’t get anything that is disgusting.
“I am lucky enough to have a small platform, and some people, not a lot of people, listen to me.
“When we approach people who are known to us, we always ask you to talk about the disease because you open more doors and draw more people aware of it, not only for treatment, but also for understanding how people are sometimes.
“The last thing you want is that someone ends his life because he has a bad day with his illness. And that happens far too often.”
:: Tickets for James Wades “An audience with stars” at the Old Thorns Resort & Hotel in Hampshire on August 22nd can be found at https://www.bipolaruk.org/james-wade-black-tie-event-for-bipolar.
